SorrowThrough sickness and health,poorness and wealth,real love is usually known.But we, my dear,share nothing but sorrow:cry together, smile alone.
Goodbyedo you remember?you and me holding hands, so in love at the start..you and me in the wind on a swing at the park..on my knee with a ring, oh we hugged and we smiled..life was good; now it's great, or was I just in denial?'cause we fought, then we cried; and we broke, then we lied..now you're gone and I'm lost feeling so weak inside..so I ask: could we be — after all we have seen —still in love, yet broke up; somewhere trapped in between?I don't know, you're still gone; time has passed, nights are long..here's to you — here's goodbye — as to you I gift this song..
I Won't SpeakI'm sorry; I won't speak, lestyou know how I feel, orfeel how my heart aches,in silence, and conceals howmuch I care for you, and thethings that I go through:should I drown in my fears, orspill my heart to you?
Six Second Poem"We're all the same," she said. "Friend, tell me," she asked, "how are we different?"For six seconds I paused, then I said:Some of us ..love more than we hate,laugh more than we cry,work harder than we play, butlive before we die.Some of us don't. And that, my friend, is how we are all different.
I'm Fine"Are you okay?"No. I'm dying. I have to push myself to wake up in the morning, and when I finally do, I want to go back to sleep. Even my best dreams are becoming nightmares. I can't taste food, I can't stand the things I used to love. I'm breaking. I'm fading. I'm dying."I'm fine."
Reversed Abduction -Chapter 1- The silver clock hung noisily on the wall, ticking with the sound of a bomb as each second went by. I was impatiently waiting for nine o’clock that evening. The reason? I was practically forced into walking to the mall with my best friend, Lux, and her “boyfriend”, Jack. Jack would repeatedly end their relationship, until he discovered that his good looks weren’t going to get him very far when matched up with his attitude. So, he would beg for Lux to take him back… and Lux, being so in infatuated with him, would agree to the relationship in an instant. Apparently they were back together, and wanted to meet with me at the mall that night. … At nine o’clock… on Sunday. I turned my head to my mother as she sat on the recliner. Her short, curly blonde hair barely reached her shoulders. She was twirling it with her finger, as if it wasn’t already perfectly shaped and spiraled. “Hazel,” she
AnorexiaMeet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stoneStaring at the other girl, the one that's not aloneGirl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seasGrin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a diseaseFlashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cureShe has everything… and No One's off to be like her.Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be awayThrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okayWatching as her very bones are seen behind her fleshThere she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success.Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to daysEvery moment slipping, slowly fading into greyRapidly, her body turns to nothing but her bonesAs she fights for beauty, as she battles for the throne.Broken hearts must learn to beat, and this she came to knowLearning it the hard way when her heartbeat grew too slowYet, she somehow managed still to shine from what's withinLying in her casket with her hidden, unseen sin.Final thoughts ins
RemindersPlease send me a memoReminding me to smile(Sometimes my heart forgets)And don't forget to addHow wonderful I am(It always seems to slip my mind)And sometimes you might need to remind meTo hold on a little tighterAnd Fight a little harderPlease remember to tell meThat you really do care(It never seems to stick)You tell me I am special(Maybe this time i'll believe you)Or I might forgetAnd I might just stop believingIn myself and youAnd sometimes you might need to remind meTo hold on a little tighterAnd fight a little harderPlease send me a memoTelling me to live(You know that I'll forget)And please remind me thatThere's a sun outside these curtainsAnd a rainbow behind the rainTell me to look a little harder(Sometimes I barely glance)And see that the world is waitingAnd it's not as bad as I think(I'm not sure I'd believe you)And sometimes you might need to remind meTo hold on a little tighterAnd fight a little harder[Note to self:Keep on breathingKeep o
self hatredI don't know how you could see this body as perfectWhen all I see is mistakesI'm not sure how you looked into my eyes and said you saw angelswhen all I can see is deep darkness hiding demons in the shadowsYou claimed I'm was too skinny and needed to eatI say I'm not skinny enough and refuse to touch anythingYou said I should openI say I'm under lock and keyYou said you where leavingI want you to stayYou said I was beautifulI only see uglinessYou said you'd returnI knew you wouldn'tYour last words to me where full of hateand finally we agreed on something
AloneCompletely aloneIn a crowded roomCan you see me?Hear me?Or am I not part of this worldAm I nothing?I'm pushed awayFrom the livingFrom lifeAnd from youIn solitudeIn darknessIn hopethat you will save me(you don't)I push through the crowdEffortlesslyThey aren't thereDon't careBut I fallOver and overand overTumbleTripFallCrawlTo the cornerAnd sitAloneYet notI can't see youHear youAnd I'm aloneAgainIn a crowded roomYou won't save me(you wont)
too loud to hear. our world isso full of noise that silenceis the loudest cry
AloneIt is quite funny how something simple,So simple in both nature and action,Can make you feel so utterlyAlone.Something simple likeYour friends all having time to be togetherBut no time to be with you.Something simple likeYour friends smiling and laughingWhile you fight the unhappiness inside youThat they don’t seem to notice.Something as simple asNot being invited to a partyBecause they “exceeded the limit they could invite.”Something as simple asAlways following behind, one step awayBut as you slow to a stopThey don’t turn to make sure you are still okay.It is quite angering and upsettingTo always have to wonder why.Why it seems like you aren’t important enoughTo keep them company.Why you will never be good enoughTo truly be their friend.Why you will always be left behindWhen you want so much to take part in it.Why you are always just “average” enoughTo never make a lasting impression.How is one supposed to beMagni
My LoveI love you...Your broken mess,Your heartlessnessYour selfish might,Your bitter lightYour broken hope,Your suicidal ropeYour dried up tears,Your painful yearsYour endless struggles,Your loveless cuddlesYour numbing emotion,Your lack of devotion...I love you.Despite it all.
How It IsIf you look into my eyesif you try to see my soulyou'll be searching forever because nothing is there anymore.You can crawl inside me and search.But you won't find anything.I promise you I'm okayDon't worry (I say that too much).'Nothing' is better than 'bad', right?(That's what you're led to believe anyway)That nothing is better than pain and feeling empty is better than hurtingAt least pain is realat least its a feeling.There was a time I wanted nothing more than to make all the feelings dissappear. I'd give anything to be back there.I'm nothing now.I can dance...but I have no rhythm.I can sing...but my voice is hollow.I can paint and I can draw...but there's no heart in it.There's no heart in me.You can see straight through meI'm hollowYou could love me if you wantBut I don't think I could love you backYou can't hurt me anymoreBut can you still try?You k
TonightTonight I tried to tear my skinStraight from my bonesBut all that was under my fingernailsWere pieces of peeled paintTonight I tried to open my chestTo release the thing that lives inside meBut my skin is made of steelAnd my fingers bledTonight my phone is silentAnd a woman on the other lineTells meThat you are unavailable orcannot be reachedI understand, I sayIt's how it's always beenTonight the sky is explodingAnd the walls are caving inBut I am scared to go outsideI am scared to moveTonight I am aloneWearing a robe, a bandageDrinking a sad cocktailAnd hating my loveTonight I tried to run awayBut my feet are now rawAnd I fellTonightI'm giving up
ListenThey all said "I want to save you"And they swore "We want to be there for you"Then they told her that she pushed them awayThat they couldn't help if they didn't knowIf they didn't understandAnd she said,"I never wanted you to understand.I only needed you to listen"
Scream baby screamScream baby screamMake them hear your voiceShow them what you're worthAnd I promiseone day they will notice(Just keep screaming babyThen they might look closer)Whispers wil get you nowhere babeYou gotta scream until they noticeWake 'em up and break 'em upand make 'em open their eyesScream baby screamCos you're a whirlwind in disguiseAnd you're nothing until you screamYou're not the kind to run awaybut you're not the kind to stayYou're the kind to fake it, make upand wake up all aloneScream your little heart out babyAnd pull yourself togetherScream into the lonely nightAnd they'll see who you really areScream baby screamOr they'll never understandScream into the oceanScream into the silenceWith a voice like a fallen angelThey better listen sometime soonScream baby screamAnd you might find a way outScream baby screamAnd I promiseOne day they'll notice
Counting life10 080 minutes have left meWith 5 puncture marks24 hours of antidote37 new lines and19 hours of lost sleepI have gainedA brand new bracelet(With my name and date neatly printed)3.4 hours of how are you??And 5.5 uncertain smilesYou have given me a lack of privacyDisguised as an improvement21 hugs and 32Declarations of loveYou asked 51 questions andI gave you 2 answers4 excusesand 25 uncertaintiesI have spent 17.2 minutes in tears10 minutes screamingand 45 hours in silenceI have given up 14 times andby tomorrow it will be 16I am left with 166.5 doubts and1.5 certainties10 080 minutes have left mewith nothing but numbers.
We weren't stolen or lost...Who will standFor the girls with broken heartsAnd too much make-up and too-short skirtWho cry for something betterThan petty drunk - 'it was just one night' - loveWho will screamFor the whisky breath boysWho broke hearts to hideHow scared they really areThat you'll find out who they really areWho will fightFor the skinny girls obsessed with numbersNever quite low enoughAnd they want shoulder blades and pelvic bonesAnd beauty and disgustWho will speakFor the kids who stay silentAnd hide bruises under pretty clothesWith smiles that break your heartWhen you look into their eyesWho will reachFor tobacco-breath girlsWith combat boots and a fuck off glareTo hide nightmares from the pastBecause no one will get close againWho will smileAt the ones with tear stained cheeksAnd long sleeeves all year 'roundWho are told it's 'just a phase'When they know that they are dieingAnd destruction will be cause of death
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Hard to CareWhy is it so hard to care?I know that I should be there.I ignore the bell I hear chime.Instead I sit and waste time.There's nothing that I want to do.The things I enjoy are few.I know that I should be at work,But my responsibilities I shirk.The pills make me no longer sad,But apathy is just as bad.So I just let time go by.I wonder when I'll finally try.
She said "We all.fall.down"You said I should have hopeYou said it would be okayWe'll make it through this babeWe'll make it through this darkWe'll find the light and find the endSo we can start againStart what?Start fighting?Dying?Struggling?Living?So we can spin around this carouselAnd lose controlAgainYou told me I should smile moreWhy should I botherTo make you feel better?Because there's no point in being sadAll the timeYou say, as though,I don't know thisHow would you know?That I'm just lostAnd lookingDo you know what it's like?To have to hurt?Finally you ask meWhy are you so sad?I ask youWhy are you so happy?We allfalldown
SlowlyWhen I found you,myself I asked:what good have I done to deserve you?Now I know you saved mejust to kill me slowly,and deserve it I do.